When there is nothing you can do but listen

As you grow up, and start to grasp your surroundings  and the events that unleash in front of you, you start to appreciate the beauty of being a child. The innocence and ignorance and the unconditional love and joy you used to spread all over the place. When you look at your siblings now, and where they have decided to proceed in life, you start to sit back and just watch. Sometimes you wonder "Why did they become like this, this isn't right." then you start to question "What did she do to deserve this miserable life." but then with this second thought in mind you come to learn that it is meant to be for her like this, for her future is going to be bright and she will not suffer anymore.

I have to admit that this is quite difficult to experience, yet again it is a wonderful feeling. Although there is nothing you can do to change the situation, the idea that you are actually there for them, simply just to hear them out and let them talk all they want is a blessing. In return you do want to make it better, but you have to tell them it's okay, it's going to be okay you just have to wait a little more. It's hard to do, but makes that sensation rush over you that you have done a difference, you have patted their back and made them know they're not alone.

It will get better, but it's going to take some time.

It will change, but it's going to take some effort and time.

It will make her happy, but it's going to take some effort, effort, and more time.

In the end it requires strength, and the strength god have given you has put you in these situation because god knows you're fit enough to handle it all.

Be patient, and a little stronger...it will get better...nothing lasts forever.

The minor vs The major

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     Everyday you wake up, it's a blessing. Yes, a blessing everyone knows that but not everyone appreciates it. What makes up this blessing is the fact the you were given a new day to live, and to make a difference in this world.

     When you start your day with a prayer, you know you will be alright throughout the day. Yet again, everyone prays in the morning for their desires, but not everyone prays consciously.

     These days, respect seems to be lacking in our actions. Everything we do, we're missing something important, appreciation and respect. We seem to forget that the people we work with, and the ones serving us are actually people in return. They have their own lives, their own issues, and their own concerns. We seem to lack notice of that and think the world revolve around ourselves only. Why do we forget that these people may be having a bad day and are forcing themselves to smile and serve us with their best, why do we seem to forget that they maybe experiencing the best day of their lives and forget to say something nice just to add a little more joy to their lives? Why does this seem too hard to perform?

     Funny to mention, it is way too easy to show off and dive into other people's private lives. It is also way too easy to follow the trends and the latest hypocrisy trends, yet too hard to show appreciation and to respect..what is this turning us into...monsters day by day.

     This scares me of the day future becomes near, and their is no decency and kindness amongst people, this may seem scary indeed but still in return I appreciate and respect the very few 1% of this population that really thinks the way I do, that still respects and appreciates and prays sincerely from the bottom of their heart.

     May people like you replicate and outgrow the ones that don't give a shit about anything but themselves.

Trends and Disceptions

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    It's kind of sad to see how life has turned out to be when you finally grew up. I think it's the way people decided to live with what they have, they blindly inflict what they never thought would follow as children. No rational thinking has been performed, you simply hear them say over and over again "Everyone's doing it, it's the new trend."

    That scares me all the time, it's a shame to want to go find a proper shirt these days and find none. 

    Where have all the decency went? It's just a shirt I'm looking for, a simple shirt nothing fancy, just a plain shirt, but it's really scary to admit to find none. Literally none, all you find is a piece of cloth that barely covers up what a shirt used to cover completely. What if I didn't want to show any skin, what if I wanted to keep my skin to myself, what if I just wanted to wear something normal? Where did I go in that customer demand market?  Producers have neglected us and saw as the minority that will not make any revenue, so instead of satisfying our desires, they simply erased us from their target market.

    It's only 2018, and no decency is displayed. I fear for the day where a lot of skin starts to become the trend and I will have to stay at home to save my family.

    I fear for that day everyday.

    How will my nephews live in that era, how will my nieces grow to be? It's all from the family, but still you can never let them grow under your wings forever, the day where they start to blend in the environment will come, and that is when the real battle will begin. I believe it will be a hard one, only those strong will make it, but I wonder if parents at that time will be as strong as they say they will be.

Too Much Reading Was Never A Problem

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     The moment you start reading a lot, is the moment you start to be afraid of yourself. You read books about controlling emotions, books about living in the moment and books to accept who you are as you are and so forth. By time you notice yourself practicing skills you never thought you would, you see yourself very dedicated to ensure healthy thinking and not rushing through what might happen in the future because no one knows what is going to happen. You notice yourself puling yourself back to today, when you notice being afraid and emotional about things that will happen tomorrow, you remember that whatever you're feeling right now, whether you feel like crying or anxious, is eventually forced on yourself by yourself. You shiver to the thought of harming yourself, but you happen to be the one doing so with your thinking. Keep it to the day when it comes to calm yourself, but then what happens when that day has come? You can't help but give in to reality and accept your reactions and the harshness of life, somethings are always against our wills, there is nothing we can possibly do about them but respect the flow of time and that only time will heal.

     Little did I know that I would be the one practicing all that, and eventually respecting that only time will heal, will it though?

     Yes, it will because you feel it will and because you believe it will. The day where you look back at your current self will come and you will feel proud of how you mastered the strength to accept reality and move on.

    Appreciating the journey to where ever it plans to take me.

I'm sorry my child

Dear child, 

For everything I have done that you might not be aware of when you are older, at this moment I am going to take the chance to apologize. For what I have caused to you, and for being the reason of your failure in your life.

I wish I can change what you are now.

I wish I can go back in time

If only I listened to you

If only I controlled myself and my desires and enjoyed your every moment in my life.

If only..

I'm sorry my child...

I'm sorry my child...

I wonder if that is what parents these days are going to write for their children to read when they grow up and start to understand life, wouldn't that be at least some effort done by the parents to make it up for what they made their children go through for the sake of them enjoying some quality time together, without their infants? How are they going to cure their regret, and their pain when they can not go back in time and change....

Dearest child,

Stay with auntie for the time being until mommy comes back from her beauty appointment.

But I don't want to stay wit Auntie , I want to go with you mommy.

Auntie is going to play with you and show you really nice videos on her iPad.


Mom puts on her clothes and sneaks out of the house while her child is distracted with something else. What about me mom? I do not want to be left behind, take me with you


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My Love,

Mommy has to leave you with nana while she goes to the hospital and get your baby brother. You will have someone to play with when I am back, you will be the big boy and big brother :)

Really mommy, I wanna go with you to bring baby brother.

No Sweety, you have to stay here until I get back okay, love you.

But I do not want to stay with nana alone, can I stay with daddy?

No my love, daddy is busy with work, you have to stay with nana till daddy gets home.

But I wanna stay with daddy.

Mom sneaks out again while her lover cries his heart out wanting to go with her.


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    We have come to the age where children became our setbacks from our desires and pleasures. They became the set backs that keep us from enjoying life the way we used to before we had them, we can not travel a lone the way we used to without having to bare the troubles of changing diapers, putting them to sleep and making sure they are not hungry anymore. But let us agree on one thing, as you pass through the different stages of your life, you are not going to live it the same way you used to, life of the singles is not like the life of the married and the life of the parent. The beauty though lies in the stages of you adapting to the changes in your life and embracing them, do not cause trouble and blame your kids for being your kids, if you did not have the courage and patience to raise them then why did you have them in the first place? It is not their fault, it is yours and yours alone, adapt to the changes and do not drop your kids and disregard them, they deserve all the attention and care god has given you the ability to share, it is not for you to keep it is for you to give and give and give.

Do not be their reason to an unhappy life and to their choice of depression and unloving people when they grow up, embrace the gifts you have from god and don't disregard them for your own pleasures. Don't prove yourselves to be unworthy of what you have, don't deform yourselves in shame in front of god.

A Child At Heart

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     What's interesting about life is the fact that you are meant to go through a lot while you  are alive. You are not supposed to expect to live happily ever after all you life, that does not add up to anything in your life records. What makes your life worth the living and reading if you start to write it down, is the struggles and problems you go through while you live. It is from them you take all your strengths and it is from them that you learn to beauty of actual living. You experience patience, pain, silence, and faith all together and while you do, you start to grow into a wiser person. That is the case only if you believe that everything happens for a pretty good reason, and whatever good you do is not to expect anything in return, in fact you do it to live happy and to feel good about yourself. That is all.

     Never expect anything in return to whatever you do, if you do good then keep on doing it for nothing in return. On the contrary, avoid seeking harm and pain to the other people around you. If you think you can not say something nice, then don't speak at all. If you believe that you can not do something good to make it better then do not volunteer to make it worse. Keep it all to yourself unless it's something good that will contribute to making others happy. 

     I came to learn that everything happens for a reason, whether it's something we like or something we detest, if it's meant to be it will be regardless. I came to learn that a weak heart always wins, when a child starts to cry, feeling soft is not a bad thing. When a child that wants to be held is not held, you go and pick him/er up and hold them until their desire is satisfied, it is okay to do that. Sometimes an unexpected moment of silence is all that is needed. Children feel and understand even though they have not matured yet. They feel sad from time to time, they feel the urge to cry for no reason, that is okay. When they are in their ultimate point of joy is when I say "It is okay to be a child at heart". It is them tiny humans that show us the true meaning of life and teach us how to live and enjoy the moment. Let go of all the pain and guilt and hatred, be a child and live happily ever after.

     When you want to do something unexpectedly, then do it. Try to avoid thinking about what has not happened and you "think it might" happen in the future because there is no guarantee that the future will arrive. It is all about the moment, although hard to live by but it is worth a try. Force yourself to think about now and live now, when you catch yourself thinking about the future, then look back and stay in the now. Before you run out of the now.

Everyday, All Year Long

People crave new beginnings, they always want a new opportunity, a new place, a new job or maybe a new partner to start from scratch. It is by human nature that most of us desire that, but not all of us know that we are the owners to new beginnings. It is us that decide when to start new, we do not have to wait for that someone to walk into our lives to change.

We do not have to wait for New Years to set new goals and start clean.

We do not have to get married to decide to live a new life.

We do not have to graduate high school to commit to being a better person.

We do not have to fall down to decide to change the way we are living.

We are blessed every single day with anew opportunity and a new start. Every morning marks the start of a new beginning, a new life, and a new challenge.  When will we come to accept that the "regular" is not really the regular any more. We are the owners of our choice, and we are the owners of our lives and going down the bottom, we are the ones who decide to either accept or reject new beginnings as we wake up every morning. Waking up every day with a mentality to doing something different, challenging yourself at work or school, or simply deciding to doing something new today, that is what a new day is all about. Mind it or not, we basically have 365 new opportunities all year round, and with this year just starting, I feel like I have already experienced  3 new experiences as of yet. 

That is just how I view 2018 as it comes by, just like 2017, just like 2016 and all the rest that came before.

Thank you for giving me another reason to feel blessed this morning.