When there is nothing you can do but listen

As you grow up, and start to grasp your surroundings  and the events that unleash in front of you, you start to appreciate the beauty of being a child. The innocence and ignorance and the unconditional love and joy you used to spread all over the place. When you look at your siblings now, and where they have decided to proceed in life, you start to sit back and just watch. Sometimes you wonder "Why did they become like this, this isn't right." then you start to question "What did she do to deserve this miserable life." but then with this second thought in mind you come to learn that it is meant to be for her like this, for her future is going to be bright and she will not suffer anymore.

I have to admit that this is quite difficult to experience, yet again it is a wonderful feeling. Although there is nothing you can do to change the situation, the idea that you are actually there for them, simply just to hear them out and let them talk all they want is a blessing. In return you do want to make it better, but you have to tell them it's okay, it's going to be okay you just have to wait a little more. It's hard to do, but makes that sensation rush over you that you have done a difference, you have patted their back and made them know they're not alone.

It will get better, but it's going to take some time.

It will change, but it's going to take some effort and time.

It will make her happy, but it's going to take some effort, effort, and more time.

In the end it requires strength, and the strength god have given you has put you in these situation because god knows you're fit enough to handle it all.

Be patient, and a little stronger...it will get better...nothing lasts forever.

The nice person she always was

"Life is filled with ups and downs, regardless of how happy, or how sad you currently are. That is why you should always be thankful to God - Just keep that in mind" Echo Bliss

It has always been like this for her but she never took it to heart. She thought she was doing good because that's how she was raised and that was how she really was...by god's nature..she was just like that. The good thing about it is that she actually accepted herself because she was who she was.

How can a person live happily ever after if he/she is not very satisfied with who he/she is? That's just a waste of time to live like that isn't it? For her it was not a waste of time because she always accepted herself, but what she detested the most was being taken advantage of.

That was a human trait that hurt most of them, especially her. 

Why would they do that..she would think to herself.

Was it really worth the time...she would regret.

Eventually it was time for her to put an end to it because nothing lasts forever. She knew she'd hear hurtful statements but she didn't care. It was just like the having the words come through an ear and leave the other with no impact whatsoever because she was living to satisfy herself and not satisfy them. They have themselves to satisfy she was held responsible about herself and no one else. 

That is how..she finally decided to live and the people that really care will understand and support her to be who she really is.

Blessed.

It's Spring time

Just as the title implies, it's Spring and not as in the season but as in the semester. Spring 2014.

Before starting off on how the very first day of this semester was I've got to make a few little point outs. First of all, back here Winter was really late, and it's already mid-February and boy it's really cold. However, the cold back here is like torture. Let me emphasize on that point, when I said " torture" I really meant it. Last year, I've been to Korea and it was Winter time. The streets were covered in white and the breeze was really cold, but to my surprise I loved the weather. It was perfect and pleasant to my skin. The Koreans wore thick coats and were literally covered from head - to - toe, while I on the other hand, had my normal long-sleeved outfits with a knee-length coat on. It was pretty nice to be honest despite being -17 degrees. Maybe because I was not used to such cold weather, but it was kind of funny for me to quickly adapt to it considering the fact that I'm a person that gets really cold really fast. Anyways back to the Equator countries like the UAE, cold is torture like I previously mentioned, I mean it's only 16 degrees but I feel dead from the inside out, literally. It's so painful to my bones I feel they would shatter from it. It's quite ironic really, but bearable. The only thing we accept and have no saying in is the weather.

Moving to my first day of this promising semester. First of, to be personal satisfaction I finally started in my beloved major/track. Words can't express how excited I am about that although it might sound very weird to talk about but I love what I have for a track. It's a track I've loved before getting to know it really. This is where " Happiness and Satisfaction is the key " works yet I'm not quite sure that is a saying but I hope you got the point. If a person is really happy and satisfied about what they do then there's no doubt it's going to be a piece of cake. That I know for a fact because I've experienced it. So I'm really glad about that.

I'll have to contain my content and satisfaction about my first day and move to what incidents highlighted it. For a start, there's no doubt challenge is everywhere. However, if you're planning on challenge or even 'war' then I do not think that's the right choice.

Let me explain:

Here's the scenario. As usual I was the only student from my college ( I plan on keeping it to myself ). It didn't seem surprising to me at all considering I did not recognize a single face from the 60 students surrounding me except for my best friend. She was the one reason I signed up for that class and more or less we were up for it together so that wasn't a problem at all. Like always the professor liked that fact that I was from my college because not a lot of students from it sign up for such classes. I did so because I wanted to take interesting free electives and diversify my knowledge.

"So I heard from your previous deans that students from your college are really smart"

That wasn't excpected but yes we are smart ..I guess?

The other girls did not seem to like that comment and were like " Sir, students from our college are smart and only them" Okay I did not want to misjudge her but there's no need for challenge. I mean the professors point was to know more and back up what he heard, there was nothing wrong with that right? I mean I deserved a little attention considering the fact that I was unofficially an " outsider "? If that's the right term to use. Anyways that's not the case what I want to point out is, although we come from different cities and have different interests, that does not mean we should battle it out. There's no need for that.

If you felt the challenge, you can apparently point it out in a better mannered way and not disgust. No one said other colleges were not qualified, we're just talking about them in general. If an alien was in that class and the professor found that interesting and surprising, he would basically spend the entire hour trying to get answers for his questions right?

Just let it pass..just let it pass : what I always say to keep it calm.

It disappoints me to see how people turn out to be. I mean there's no harm in showing your bright side and keep the dirty one to yourself, right?

Nutshell : The first day was promising, although the heat did not help at all but it's going to be  a thrilling ride. And that I know for sure .