I'm sorry my child

Dear child, 

For everything I have done that you might not be aware of when you are older, at this moment I am going to take the chance to apologize. For what I have caused to you, and for being the reason of your failure in your life.

I wish I can change what you are now.

I wish I can go back in time

If only I listened to you

If only I controlled myself and my desires and enjoyed your every moment in my life.

If only..

I'm sorry my child...

I'm sorry my child...

I wonder if that is what parents these days are going to write for their children to read when they grow up and start to understand life, wouldn't that be at least some effort done by the parents to make it up for what they made their children go through for the sake of them enjoying some quality time together, without their infants? How are they going to cure their regret, and their pain when they can not go back in time and change....

Dearest child,

Stay with auntie for the time being until mommy comes back from her beauty appointment.

But I don't want to stay wit Auntie , I want to go with you mommy.

Auntie is going to play with you and show you really nice videos on her iPad.


Mom puts on her clothes and sneaks out of the house while her child is distracted with something else. What about me mom? I do not want to be left behind, take me with you


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My Love,

Mommy has to leave you with nana while she goes to the hospital and get your baby brother. You will have someone to play with when I am back, you will be the big boy and big brother :)

Really mommy, I wanna go with you to bring baby brother.

No Sweety, you have to stay here until I get back okay, love you.

But I do not want to stay with nana alone, can I stay with daddy?

No my love, daddy is busy with work, you have to stay with nana till daddy gets home.

But I wanna stay with daddy.

Mom sneaks out again while her lover cries his heart out wanting to go with her.


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    We have come to the age where children became our setbacks from our desires and pleasures. They became the set backs that keep us from enjoying life the way we used to before we had them, we can not travel a lone the way we used to without having to bare the troubles of changing diapers, putting them to sleep and making sure they are not hungry anymore. But let us agree on one thing, as you pass through the different stages of your life, you are not going to live it the same way you used to, life of the singles is not like the life of the married and the life of the parent. The beauty though lies in the stages of you adapting to the changes in your life and embracing them, do not cause trouble and blame your kids for being your kids, if you did not have the courage and patience to raise them then why did you have them in the first place? It is not their fault, it is yours and yours alone, adapt to the changes and do not drop your kids and disregard them, they deserve all the attention and care god has given you the ability to share, it is not for you to keep it is for you to give and give and give.

Do not be their reason to an unhappy life and to their choice of depression and unloving people when they grow up, embrace the gifts you have from god and don't disregard them for your own pleasures. Don't prove yourselves to be unworthy of what you have, don't deform yourselves in shame in front of god.

"Watching is never going to make magic"

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"As you grow old, you learn more. If you stayed at twenty-two, you'd always be as ignorant as you were at twenty-two. Aging is not just decay, you know. It's growth. It's more than the negative that you're going to die, its also the positive that you understand you're going to die, and that you live a better life because of it." - Morrie Schwartz

    When you think of it one way or the other, there is so much to life that you are yet to experience and learn. You will never end the lessons, it's like a course that never ends till it's time for your departure. Part of growing up is actually to start comprehending and to start making plans. One should never stay at that one spot and remain there, it's boring. Imagine wearing the same outfit for the rest of your life every single day to every single occasion. How old-school will that be, let alone boring and embarrassing.

    Part of living life, is actually setting goals and reaching out for them. A coach, whom I admire very much, once said "Watching is never going to make magic." Now that might sound out of context, but in the context of when she said it, it was a gym class. Most of the attendees where simply watching the torture-like exercise the coach was demonstrating for us to follow. To get over that gut-feeling that it's impossible, personally speaking I got over that and worked it out admiring what she just said. I never thought words of encouragement were going to be said by that specific coach. That was inspiring.

    Going back home with that thought in mind, watching really is never going to make magic. It never will and as a matter of fact it never is magic itself. If you take a moment to fully comprehend that thought, it basically applies to every aspect in life especially if you're one that is currently planning out your life ahead. Everyone can set goals, everyone can make endless lists of what they want to do and what they want to be. However, not everyone "works" on making the magic happen. The toughest part of really being what you want to be and doing what you really want to do is "work". Whatever it is you plan to do with your life, you got to work for it regardless. The worst part of it all, is to lead a wreckless-in-the-void type of life. That's simply a waste of time, effort, and well...space.

    No matter how old you're getting, you will always learn something new everyday. That is inevitable. There will always be that lesson you learn as you grow, it's part of growing up and developing yourself. It's up to you though to widely accept this and learn/argue, or discard it and waste a possible life changing experience.

Tuesdays with Morrie

Reading through my "read" shelf I noticed that I haven't written a review for this book and that's kind of weird because I remember rating it and thinking of reviewing it sometime through that day. Anyways, I'm going to write my review right now.

For a start, Mitch Albom is becoming one of my favorite writers however, this book wasn't the best he's ever written, or the best I've read by him. That reasons my rating of 3 stars on goodreads. When I read the brief description at the back cover I got attached to the book first because it was real, it was different and it was another book I wanted to read by M.Albom. As I started reading through the book, I liked every page of it, but suddenly I started to lose interest in the book for some reason and I am not sure why really. There was something that got me scanning through the pages although I loved the characters very much and the way they were illustrated and written and expressed, but something made me lose interest so I just skimmed till the end and was somewhat disappointed really.

In terms of the story as a whole, I had mixed feelings and I liked it but why I lost interest I dont really know, maybe because of all the tuesdays but still it felt like Mitch intentionally wrote all those Tuesdays to reflect and show what really happened during their meetings so probably brining it back to reality. 

From what I read, Mitch Albom is a writer that is not affraid to admit to reality and to write about everything that was going it, having it good, bad, embarrassing, whatever that was he wrote it and that's what I like about him, when  he talks about the lectures and his college days...it's true and I can feel it somehow...that's why he stands out from everyone else.

 

Well that's what I thought of this book.