I'm sorry my child

Dear child, 

For everything I have done that you might not be aware of when you are older, at this moment I am going to take the chance to apologize. For what I have caused to you, and for being the reason of your failure in your life.

I wish I can change what you are now.

I wish I can go back in time

If only I listened to you

If only I controlled myself and my desires and enjoyed your every moment in my life.

If only..

I'm sorry my child...

I'm sorry my child...

I wonder if that is what parents these days are going to write for their children to read when they grow up and start to understand life, wouldn't that be at least some effort done by the parents to make it up for what they made their children go through for the sake of them enjoying some quality time together, without their infants? How are they going to cure their regret, and their pain when they can not go back in time and change....

Dearest child,

Stay with auntie for the time being until mommy comes back from her beauty appointment.

But I don't want to stay wit Auntie , I want to go with you mommy.

Auntie is going to play with you and show you really nice videos on her iPad.


Mom puts on her clothes and sneaks out of the house while her child is distracted with something else. What about me mom? I do not want to be left behind, take me with you


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My Love,

Mommy has to leave you with nana while she goes to the hospital and get your baby brother. You will have someone to play with when I am back, you will be the big boy and big brother :)

Really mommy, I wanna go with you to bring baby brother.

No Sweety, you have to stay here until I get back okay, love you.

But I do not want to stay with nana alone, can I stay with daddy?

No my love, daddy is busy with work, you have to stay with nana till daddy gets home.

But I wanna stay with daddy.

Mom sneaks out again while her lover cries his heart out wanting to go with her.


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    We have come to the age where children became our setbacks from our desires and pleasures. They became the set backs that keep us from enjoying life the way we used to before we had them, we can not travel a lone the way we used to without having to bare the troubles of changing diapers, putting them to sleep and making sure they are not hungry anymore. But let us agree on one thing, as you pass through the different stages of your life, you are not going to live it the same way you used to, life of the singles is not like the life of the married and the life of the parent. The beauty though lies in the stages of you adapting to the changes in your life and embracing them, do not cause trouble and blame your kids for being your kids, if you did not have the courage and patience to raise them then why did you have them in the first place? It is not their fault, it is yours and yours alone, adapt to the changes and do not drop your kids and disregard them, they deserve all the attention and care god has given you the ability to share, it is not for you to keep it is for you to give and give and give.

Do not be their reason to an unhappy life and to their choice of depression and unloving people when they grow up, embrace the gifts you have from god and don't disregard them for your own pleasures. Don't prove yourselves to be unworthy of what you have, don't deform yourselves in shame in front of god.